Thank you for all the lovely, supportive comments after my last post. I appreciate them all so much. I think it’s a bit tricky to write when I’m in this current state of flux, but some of you have asked me to update you, so here I am!
Still no alcohol since that Sunday evening drink. My intentions are not to drink in the week, so that side of things is going well, and I feel pretty much as I felt when I was totally abstinent. It is odd not counting the days anymore though, and I don’t have quite the same sense of purpose that I did before. The weekend is beginning to loom, but I don’t yet have the same cravings that I had before, perhaps because I don’t feel the same sort of pressures; but I haven’t hit Friday night yet.
I am so very aware that I don’t want to encourage people to drink. I know everyone has to make up their own minds, but when I was doing my sober stretch, I found myself hanging on some bloggers’ words, particularly those who I sensed might pick up a drink. If they drank, then perhaps I could drink? So I don’t want to influence anyone, or tempt them into drinking, because being clear headed and sober is such a good thing.
I am still reading blogs every day, and commenting where I can, and I still feel very much part of the community. But I guess I also feel a bit of a bad girl 😦