Day 20

When I woke up this morning, I made a mental note that I felt good and that I would put this in my blog. Banish the gloom! Be more upbeat! I do feel clear headed and calm when I wake, and this has really helped me cope with kids, family life etc. I often write my posts later in the day, when the cravings have started to nag me, so I’m writing this earlier in the hope that it doesn’t sound so depressed.

On another positive note, last night my children said how much nicer I’ve been these past 20 days. I think schools do a lot of work about the perils of drinking and drugs, so all three kids are currently anti-alcohol; my 10 year old says she is going to be teetotal. It helps to have these mini accountability members in my sober group, and they keep me on track. Having a mother who reads to them every night now rather than sloping off down to the kitchen is a good thing, and I need to remember that.

So. Still cross that I can’t drink, but grateful that I have people in my life who care about whether I drink or not.  Opening the wine bottle now would feel like a kind of betrayal: of them, of you guys, of myself.