Listening to the radio in the car today, I happened to hear two separate alcohol-related discussions: one was about someone who makes cocktails with interesting herbs, the other was related to a group of journalists who had undergone various tests while doing Dry January. Without going into too much detail, the gist of the latter was that the researchers had been amazed by the results of these tests which had shown significant health improvements in a very short space of time. If there was a drug which did that, the researcher said, it would be worth billions. The herbal cocktail lady was describing how she creates different drinks with herbs from the garden; they all sounded pretty potent. When the interviewer asked if there were any mocktail versions available, the lady rather scathingly remarked that there were, but that these were for the ‘sanctimonious and serene’. And ‘sensible’, the interviewer suggested.
As you will have seen from my post yesterday, I am finding myself drawn to these sorts of medical findings on radio or television programmes, or in the papers, perhaps to add weight to what I’m doing. It’s as though I don’t quite have faith in myself. My short holiday with my husband is rapidly approaching, and I am seriously concerned that I won’t be able to stay strong. We have been married for 18 years, and I have never had a holiday with him without drinking. I know it sounds feeble of me to be anxious about it, but that is how I am feeling. 23 days today, so I do feel that I’m making progress, but these anxieties are preoccupying me.