It’s Day 24, and I guess I should be feeling good about that. But I can’t seem to shake off this low, flat feeling. My tummy problem is still faintly there; it has improved, particularly since I stopped the coffee, but it hasn’t completely gone and that worries me a little. At least it stops me from drinking: it would clearly be crazy to exacerbate my symptoms. But in an odd way, this physical problem almost prevents me from enjoying and getting on with the mental side of sobriety. It feels too easy: possible stomach inflammation = no alcohol. But what about when I am mended (I hope)? Will it then be easy to make excuses and start drinking again?
It is 3.30pm, and this is a typical 3.30pm thought process, the downward twist towards the evening and another weekend on the horizon.
So – enough grey thoughts! A couple of good points to focus on: skin clear and dare I say rosy (I always notice this when I’m not drinking; forget skin products, no booze is the best skincare out there); patience with kids and time for reading to them in the evenings continues with our speeding through Harry Potter with glee (MTM asked me which book I was on in a previous comment: just finishing the first one, but this is the FOURTH time I have read the whole series to them. Aaaarrrrgggghhh); and my mocktail menu has increased today as I found a cucumber mint martini on the Internet. I will try it tonight and let you know whether it is good, or if it tastes of liquid salad.