Yesterday was a low point; and today I feel better. These ups and downs seems to be pretty common for me, so I must remember not to be ground down by them when they happen. Thank you for all your support in your comments; I appreciate you all very much.
I can report that the cucumber and mint martini on Thursday night was a success. Only a hint of cucumber flavour, and the whole thing a good mix of sweet and fresh. Mocktails are still an important part of my sober routine – when I miss them, my evening doesn’t seem to go as well – so any new recipe ideas would be welcome.
Day 26 today, so day 30 is in sight. I know there is much debate about day counting in the sober sphere; I am undecided about it. I like building up sober days, but it is so awful if you slip up and have to start at Day 1 that I am beginning to question how helpful it is for me. Last year, I managed a 60 and 40 days stretch, and still I feel as though I haven’t got there yet. Is my ultimate aim total sobriety? Those of you who have followed my blog for a while will know that I am struggling to commit to that.
It sounds as though I am making excuses, and perhaps I am preparing myself for a fall. But for today, I am still not drinking.