Nearly midnight. I disappeared for a while, and am still not sure how to proceed. I wanted to let you know that I am alright, although things aren’t going brilliantly.
I have always used the blog to chart my progress, or lack of. But I worry when I feel that people are disappointed in me. I know it is my path, but I do feel a certain responsibility for what I write. When I read other blogs, I am often influenced by what I read, and I have found it impossible to detach myself from the blog and write with no regard for people who might read it. If I didn’t want people to read it, I would write it on a little piece of paper and hide it in a drawer.
So, what’s been happening? Well, I am back in a no-mans-land of indecision and doubt. But I still lack the determination to do something about it.