It is amazing how many times in the last hour or so that my mind has turned to drinking: shall I drink? Shall I give up my challenge? Shall I have one, then start my challenge again tomorrow? I am feeling tired, and overwrought, and my default setting is to drink.
So instead, I am writing here. Then I am going to make supper. I am going to push through and make it to tomorrow sober. Once I’ve had supper, I will try and get through each quarter of an hour until bedtime, not drinking.
It sounds crazy, doesn’t it, being so consumed by it. But from past experience, I know these cravings will pass.
For today, I can’t do more than these 15 minute sections, as day 3 draws to a close.