I couldn’t do it. I went to the party, and I drank. Everything else went well, and the party was a great success, but I drank. And so I have failed my personal challenge only a few days in, and am not sure what to do now.
It happens time and time again, and I keep trying different ways – and still it doesn’t stick.
I felt so good last week, so determined, and so much better as the days went by. So I think I should try again, because every time I feel good like that, a little part of me stores it away to remember for next time. But I must admit, this morning it looks pretty hopeless, and I feel quite miserable. My mind is sluggish, I am very tired after the late night and the weekend ahead has lost its brightness. I’m such a fool.
I know what I need to do, I know what I want to do, and yet I keep failing.
This time, I’m going to keep writing, even though it is painful to show you my weaknesses in this way, but I really value the help and advice I find here.