Remembering why

Day 2. I’m quite pleased, as I’ve had a bad run of consecutive day ones, or even day zeros, so this feels like a little piece of progress. It’s very hot here in the UK, with blue skies and a proper summer feel, so tempting to sit back and break open the Pimms. But in the last 48 hours, I’ve enjoyed the clarity of my new plan, and I want to stick to it.

It is taking a good deal of resolve. I am trying to plan each day carefully, moving cautiously through the tricky zones. Yesterday, 5pm still screamed ice cubes, but I steadfastly ignored the call and made supper. My younger daughter’s sports day offered Pimms (again!  See above. It’s on my mind), a strange thing to have at a primary school, but I was glad to have water. The old me would have sunk a few glasses of the other stuff without even thinking about it. And that’s how I feel I’m making a bit of progress, by thinking about it. If I pick up that first glass of alcohol, I will forget why I’m doing this; and I’m doing it because I want to feel better, to feel clearer, to be a better person, someone who can watch her child run a race without needing alcohol at the same time.

It’s only Tuesday, and the double digits seem a long way off. But I’ll keep going and try to enjoy the sun.

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6 thoughts on “Remembering why”

  1. Way to go!!! The temptation is everywhere. Alcohol even with its damaging effects is sometimes more common place at events than life sustaining water. So proud of your successful days.

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