It’s Day 13, which is further than I’ve got in a long time. But it is painfully difficult this evening. Over the course of the day, I have decided to drink/resolved not to drink about 25 times. It is now 5.45pm, my husband had son are out this evening, and so I am here with my two daughters. About 5 minutes ago, I had a small meltdown in my head, where I imagined myself having a glass of something with alcohol in it. My trying to be sober suddenly seemed like the hugest hard work and I wondered why why why was I doing this?
I am finding this so incredibly hard.