I want to do this; I need to do this. I have 100% had enough and am worn out. I’m starting today: no alcohol at all. I am putting all my strength, hope and determination into this.
I’m in London this morning, trying to recover from a ridiculous party last night. I sat having breakfast with my lovely husband, barely able to eat, and we made a plan of action: a plan which will give me the best chance of success. And I am so so glad that I have been honest with him. I told him about my throwing wine down the sink in the mornings, only to buy more later in the day. He told me that he had been pouring wine down the sink too, to try to stop me drinking – I hadn’t even been aware of that.
I am here. I am ready.