It’s nearly the end of Christmas Day here, and I didn’t stay sober.
I am disappointed, and sad. I feel as though I can’t do this. So many of the bloggers I read manage to stay sober, and I want to be like them.
I didn’t do enough to protect my fragile few days of sobriety. I didn’t tell my family what I was doing, and when I got a text this morning from someone I’d met in a meeting – a good, sober sign – I pushed it to one side. And I didn’t enjoy one sip of what I drank.
I am not sure what to do next. I feel ridiculous and pathetic.