I’m still struggling. But I know it will be a struggle, and that I’ve got to put in the hard work. This isn’t going to happen by magic.
I told my husband yesterday that I was going to close my blog, and drink moderately. This morning, he and I agreed that I need to give up completely. I know – it’s obvious to anyone reading here – but I still need to state it, for you all to see. Because despite all my good intentions yesterday, I still drank, and today I feel pretty stupid.
I start again today. I will put in the work. When I get the cravings and I start to talk myself out of it – and this happens like clockwork every afternoon at the moment – I will write here, or text or email a sober friend, or ring someone. I am not going to give up giving up.