Much less vertigo today, thankfully. I’ve still got a foggy feeling in my head, but the extreme dizziness has vanished as suddenly as it arrived. I really think it may be tied in with yesterday’s Day 3, and many of you commented about similar symptoms around that time. It’s frightening, but at the same time reassuring, because I feel that I’m moving through that particular symptom, and will now await the next.
Day 4 and I feel a bit lighter today, more positive, as though I’m settling into things a bit. It helped that the weekend was the beginning, as Monday now feels more do-able. What strikes me particularly is the feeling of having more time, so I’m not so panicked about my job starting later this week, and feel I’ve got time to prepare.
Sure, I’m still finding it difficult to contemplate not drinking in the future, and am very much having to take this one day at a time; so many times in the past, I have derailed because the idea of being teetotal, of being sober, suddenly can feel overwhelming and impossible. But I am hoping that I will build some sober strength over these January days, and that my mindset will shift. Using AA words, I guess I haven’t surrendered yet.