I feel a bit stronger today. I’m on day one – again – after drinking last night. But I then poured a whole bottle away, and I don’t think I’ve ever done that. It’s a small step, but a step nonetheless.
I am utterly fed up with my situation, and with myself. The spiral downwards is twisting me, and I want to climb free. I am going away next week with the family, and I have told my parents that I won’t be drinking. My husband is unwell at the moment, so he will be grateful for an alcohol-free holiday too.
I just feel as though I’m done with drinking. Even in my most determined times, I never really felt that, so I am hopeful that I can do this. I want my despair to lift.
12 thoughts on “Strength”
Hi Annie – I like this post. Sounds good that you have a strong feeling that you’re done this time. That was pretty instrumental for me this time and so far it’s held true. An AF holiday to recharge your batteries sounds like just what you need. Keep going, you can do this. Many hugs. Red xx
I really like the idea of an AF holiday recharging my batteries; I hadn’t looked at it like that before, and had been worrying about what I would be missing out on, rather than what I might be gaining. Annie x
Make sure your parents know you are serious. That this is (1) the start of a new way of life for you (i.e., not just this week) and (2) Very important to you because you have a serious drinking problem. They are much more likely to be supportive and much less likely to inadvertently undermine you (Oh, honey, we always have champagne the first night — one glass won’t kill you…) if they understand how high the stakes are. Don’t make it about your husband with them, make it about you. And good luck!
Yes, I need to be honest with my parents. Annie x
That’s great you poured the poison out Annie, anything new like that can be the catalyst for your long term sobriety. Hugs. Noddy. X
I was so glad to get rid of it. Annie x
Annie, good luck. Its poison, it is killing us. It doesn’t help in any situation. Don’t drink it. Be strong.
Thanks for being here. Annie x
You sound determined. That is good! Maybe it is the right time for you.
I hope so, I really do. Annie x
Hi Annie. Just wanted to drop in and say hi and cheer you on! xo
Thank you for cheering me on. Annie x