Thank you for your support yesterday; your comments mean such a lot to me.
Around 5pm yesterday, I started to wish I was drinking, and discussed wine with my husband. He suggested we have an alcohol-free drink first, and then decide; by the time I’d had the fizzy elderflower, the wine craving had passed, and I was ok with fizzy water for the rest of the evening. I watched a film with my son and husband (my two daughters both out), and was in bed by 10pm. Not a late, thrilling Saturday night, perhaps, but it’s what I needed to do, and it worked.
And that’s what I need to carry on doing, every day: make a plan each day that works for that day. This evening, I could go to a concert that my husband is playing in, but it is a ‘glass of fizz’ first concert, and I know how big a trigger that sort of an event is for me, so I’m not going.
Day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute if necessary. Because I so want to be free of this internal debate, and to live my life more fully.