Thank you for all your messages yesterday. I feel a great strength coming from them – they REALLY help.
Here I am on day 2. Apart from getting rid of all the booze, there was another first yesterday: I phoned the AA lady. I hadn’t been able to speak to her on Friday. When she texted yesterday morning asking how I was, I phoned her straight back. I know it doesn’t sound like a big deal, but I’ve found it strangely difficult to telephone AA people – it has felt awkward, somehow. This lady was great; we spoke for about half an hour, she listened and advised.
I didn’t feel like drinking at all yesterday. I hear the comments which warn me that this initial sober euphoria may quickly wear off, but the AA lady’s advice to keep it in the moment – not even in the day, but in that very minute – is how I’m trying to think. My projecting forward has been a major stumbling block for me. Stop looking ahead!
So, no booze in the house, husband on-side, lovely AA lady a phone call away: I am feeling positive. I do not want to go back to the sad, lonely, dark days, where I hide and lie and fool myself.