My husband and I have agreed that we won’t drink alcohol on our holiday. We leave in a few days’ time. I don’t drink anymore.
No more blurring; no more crazy behaviour. I am done with it.
My kind AA friend tried to ring me yesterday but I didn’t answer. I’m going to phone her back today.
I feel a heavy weight lift from my heart as I write: today is Day one.
I can’t go to rehab as my family and I are about to go on the trip of a lifetime. To America! I have never been, and the newness of it is important in my quest. The past few years we have been to the same place in France, and my drinking was entrenched. New places will help me.
Thank you all for your advice over the past few days – over the past few years. It has been seeping slowly in.