Monday afternoon, and I’m back on Day One again. But I had a good chat with my wise, lovely sponsor this morning, and she feels that despite my set-backs, the desire to stop drinking is there, and I need to believe in that.
Part of my problem is that as soon as I encounter any blips in my sober attempts, I immediately give up trying, and go crashing back to the start. This can delay my next attempt by many days or weeks. It is never going to be perfect, and while this troubles and upsets me, I need to accept it, and keep searching.
So, onwards I go.