We have friends staying with us for New Year’s Eve. Everyone drinks a lot, but I would like to start my sobriety today rather than wait for tomorrow. I am so utterly fed up with drinking – I find I don’t even like it anymore. It feels so futile and stupid. I guess I can’t really remember the last time I actually enjoyed it.
As the evening draws near, I am going to take the time to prepare nice food, and chat to our friends, and try and find some peace in this day.
I am feeling so drained.
I am back, and want to record my progress over the next few weeks, as I have tried to do many times before.
It has been a turbulent year, with far too much drinking; and it’s been gradually getting worse. It is time to take stock, to stop wasting my time searching for the next drink.
This morning, a blogging friend’s book arrived in the post: The Sober Diaries, by Clare Pooley. I can’t wait to read it. This person has been a huge inspiration to me, and I am sure her book will be full of wisdom and insight.
In the meantime, this will be the first day in a very, very long time that I have not had an alcoholic drink. I need to do this.