I have been away: away from this blog, and away from sobriety. While on holiday, I have been drinking every day, and I don’t think there has been one moment when I have felt good about it. I couldn’t even bring myself to write about it.
I am sorry if people have been worried about me, and wondered where I was. For a while, I felt out of my depth on my blog; but I don’t want to be frightened by it, I need it to help me with my journey.
I think there are going to be people who disagree with the way I am moving along my path. But I cannot design a perfect story, and I use the blog to chart my stumbling progress. And yes, I say progress, because even though I am back on Day One (tomorrow), I see a return to writing, and to trying again as some sort of progress.
I ask that you be gentle with me.
41 thoughts on “Keep on trying”
Yay for you Annie! What a wonderful day to return, Easter and new beginnings! Your journey is YOUR journey, you are the only one to know how to go forward. You are making progress! I felt horrid about my drinking for so long before I said “no more!” You’ll get there, but do it your way. We are all still here for you.
Thanks for your loving support, Mary. Annie x
Hi Annie! My comment cherry is busted now. I live in southern California. I’ve been a weirdo lurker for about a month. I like your blog a lot- you’re a great writer!
Thank you! Annie x
I’m glad you’re back. You’ll get there when the time is right. Writing yr blog can only help. It is a journey and sometimes a long one. Don’t sensor yr words for others. Your blog is about what’s inside yr head. It might not always be pretty but that is not the point or the purpose of it. Xx
Thank you for the encouragement. Annie x
Welcome back just the way you are. xx
Thank you so much. Annie x
Glad about your come-back. Keep ‘fighting’.
I will. Annie x
gentle is my middle name! welcome back. be kind to yourself
Thank you for all your support, Lisa. Annie x
Happy Easter. Hug
Hugs back. Annie x
Mildly disappointed but not surprised since you are admittedly undecided. What I find interesting is the drinking relationship parallel with blogging. It’s very understandable. The kind of relationship that has some risks but little real consequence. Enjoyable as the first couple of drinks early in the afternoon. Lovely to feel the soft caress of life as one floats downstream seemingly undisturbed, carefree, melting time as evidence of the particular moments we are given to hobble together. The remains of our lives, our choices.
Not sure how to respond to this! But thank you for being here. Annie x
Glad your back! Glad you remain honest….it’s really one of the best parts of your writing! Good thoughts going out to you!
Thanks, Shelby. Annie x
Progress, not perfection. I had many day 1s. Be kind to yourself.
I will try. Annie x
Do things your way and be gentle to yourself too. We’re right here for you xx
Thank you so much. Annie x
No need to apologise for worrying me. Worrying about you was my choice. 🙂 I just wrote a little blog post about being open to trying new and different approaches to getting and staying sober. I invite you to check it out. Stay true to you and your needs Annie. This is YOUR journey. Xo
I’ve been reading your blog. Now I’m back on the path, I will try and comment when I can. Thank you so very much for your post; you helped to get me back on track. Annie x
Big hugs Annie. Day 1 is always progress as is writing.
Sending you some fluffy Easter chicks your way 🙂
Thanks for being here. Annie x
Glad to see you back, wishing you a very positive day one tomorrow!
Thanks. Part way through Day 1 now… Annie x
Hope Day One finds you feeling good!
Thanks! Annie x
I am the LAST person who would give you crap. I get it.
After a recent “day 1 again”, I finally decided to try differently as Belle says. I have attended 2 AA meetings so far and they were great. I introduced myself as a Day 1 and before I knew it I had a book with meetings and phone numbers in my hand. It’s like a room full of cheerleaders. planning more this week as well. give them a try, please?
You’ve been with me from the start. I have looked up some local meetings and am going to try one. Thank you for being here. Annie x
Annie — we are all on our journeys to be our best possible self. This is yours. Nobody gets to define that or map out the process and alcohol is just a piece of who you are and what that journey is. I’m liking the smart, insightful and courageous woman I see her, on her way to wherever that is :-).
Thanks for your kind words. Annie x
Welcome back. The holiday was always going to be tough and it sounded like it had really been playing on your mind as an inevitable drinking ‘thing’. But now you can try to avoid being involved in those sorts of trips and look out for yourself more. Don’t stop blogging please! Day one again for me today.
We can do this together. Annie x
Glad to see you back, Annie!
I’m glad to be back! Annie x
Welcome back Annie xx
Thanks, Angie. Annie x
Hugs to you Annie